I'm not really sure what pushed me over the edge into blogging. I have been considering the idea for a few weeks but never wanted to be serious about it simply because I am not the best writer. However today was the last straw! The last time that I suffered in silence and alone. Being pregnant for the third time is just simply wonderful except for the fact that I cant seem to remember anything! Ever!
The first signs of this new disease were mild and somewhat cute, thinking "oh that's cute, Im pregnant and I cant remember things." But now at 27 weeks it has gotten serious and agonizing. I first started to notice the seriousness set in a few days ago when I went to get my passport. I am usually really good about being prepared especially if I make an appointment for something. Well I completed the forms and took the right passport photo and what not, but then he asked the question and I nearly cried. The elderly post office worker who had clearly been doing this for a long time didn't even look at me while he asked, probably because no one had ever forgot before. But just the same his question hit me like a big fat beach ball in the face." Mam do you have your birth certificate?" Um of course not why would I need that Im only requesting international travel. Suddenly tears started coming to my eyes as my husband just stared at me asking a simple question. " babe why on earth would you think you wouldn't need your birth certificate" A fair question however I didn't have an answer. What was I going to say my mind is slowly slipping away from me and I may not be adequate to live on my own anymore? That's when I realized my mind was slowly leaving me. Something I had relied on for so long was now packing its bags and leaving. The days following didn't get much better, My mind went first then the car keys decided to turn against me. Then randomly my entire kitchen decided to strike on me, ingredients I was positive I had purchased only a week ago were suddenly gone as though they never existed in my cupboards making me look very crazy in front of my husband while I attempted to Justify why Dinner wasn't ready. Surely I sounded crazy to quite a few people but I am not kidding nor am I joking my mind has decided to take a leave of absence. I am hoping it decides to come back after the baby is born. Other wise I may be looking for a life coach and or a live in assistant.
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